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  No.

  Does he say anything to you while this is going on?

  No.

  Okay, you can go on.

  He seems to pull something out, and he puts it right in something else.

  What does he put it in?

  Sort of a container with water or something in it.

  Is this container near the table, or does somebody give it to him?

  He gives it to him.

  I mean, when he first got it does somebody bring it to him to put whatever… ?

  Yeah, one of the little guys. He wants me to see it. I don’t want to see it.

  Does he show it to you anyway?

  Yes.

  What are you looking at, then?

  I’m looking at a fetus.

  Is this a live little fetus?

  Yes, it’s in the bag.

  Why does he want you to see this?

  He says, “This is your child and we’re going to raise it.” Does this look like a normal fetus?

  Yes. I told him it was part of me and they didn’t have any right. He says, “It’s our right.”

  That’s all he says, “It’s our right”?

  Yeah.

  Now, what does he do with this container?

  He puts it in the machine.

  Is there a door or a drawer for it, or an opening?

  There’s an opening on the top; he lifts it up and puts it in.

  Does it disappear into the machine, then?

  I can still see it. It must be glass.

  Do you ask him why he’s doing this?

  No. I just tell him it’s mine.

  Does he volunteer any information as to why he’s doing this?

  No, he just said it’s all right.

  What happens next?

  He told me I’m done, get dressed.

  (Lynn Miller, 31, 1986)

  Although the majority of fetal extraction procedures are performed when the abductee lies on a table, Anita Davis had a fetal extraction while sitting in a special chair.

  It’s almost like a birthing chair, it’s at an incline this way, and he’s adjusting straps, or stirrups, or something. I don’t get the feeling it’s to tie me down or anything. I know that I’m going to somehow sit on this thing.

  … So this looks more like a chairlike device.

  Like a chair that you’d squat in, like something that if you were to give birth in, it would be a good thing. It would go along with the force of gravity, and it would have you in the squatting position with one foot on each thing. I want to go back to the table. I don’t like this.

  But you don’t actually see a table in the room?

  No, I don’t think so. I tried to.

  Okay.

  It’s very obvious that what they put in now has to come out. It’s almost time to give birth to it, but yet, they’re not doing one of those birth numbers, but yet… It has, it’s time to take it out so they can have it. There’s a sense of relief with that.

  Is it more than one of them who are adjusting this?

  He’s adjusting this. He’s doing it all. The little guys are just standing there, almost hands behind their backs, at ease.

  So what are you doing?

  We’re talking back and forth. I see.

  It’s almost like the obstetrician. I don’t have any sense of dread or anything; it’s like “Yeah, this is part of the procedure.” He gets it ready, I get into it, sort of, there’s no pain or anything…. He straps my feet in. It feels just like going to the obstetrician, though. There’s no sense of “Oh, what are you doing to me?” I know what’s happening….

  So you get into this contraption. And they kind of…

  Strap my feet in.

  Where are your arms?

  There’s like handles on the sides….

  So now you’re… sitting upright?

  Mm-hmm.

  Your legs are…

  Kind of bent, like a frog.

  What are your feet on?

  On little foot platform things, kind of… .

  What are the little ones doing?

  Just standing there.

  And the taller one?

  He positions himself underneath… with maybe something made of glass… something to catch it in. And he has me bear down once. There’s no pain, it’s not like I’m simulating birth or anything. And for some reason it just comes right out. There’s a sense of relief. He gives almost a little Pyrex thing to one of the little guys, and he takes it out.

  Can you see that little Pyrex thing?

  Yeah, if you want to know what it looks like, it looks like what you’d expect a very early miscarriage to look like. (Anita Davis, 33, 1991)

  Twenty-year-old Tracy Knapp found herself the subject of a fetal extraction procedure that provoked intense feelings of sadness and depression in her.

  There’s one man here and one man on this side, and there’s one man here and they’re pressing. My legs are up, and I’m getting snipped, but internally. Something’s snipping…. Something burned, burned. A fluid burns me, burns. There’s a fluid put on me and it burns me. It’s put inside of me. It burns me. [She cries. ]

  Does anybody say anything to you at this time?

  No. [She cries.]

  [I comfort her,]

  They’re pressing and there’s snipping.

  They’re using instruments for this, I guess, then?

  Very tiny, tiny, long, very long, little, bitty scissors things but very, very tiny.

  What do you think they’re snipping at? Can you get a physiological sense of that?

  Yeah, it feels like… snipping on both sides. Somehow they like, I just feel like an uneasiness. I don’t know where they’re coming into… I don’t like it. I don’t like it. They’re not taking eggs out of me. They’re just snipping, it’s like they’re snipping. They’re releasing, they’re snipping. It’s like they’re cutting threads or something. They’re cutting something, I don’t know, I don’t know.

  Do you get the sense that they’re… ?

  Removing something.

  Is this a long procedure or a short procedure, or… ?

  Pretty long…. I can’t fucking believe this!

  Do you kind of see them finishing up?

  Yeah.

  Do they remove their instruments?

  Yeah, they removed something out of me. They removed like a, like a little baby or something. And they removed the sac or something. They removed the… but it’s tiny, it’s real tiny. It’s not a baby.

  An embryo you mean?

  Yeah, it’s like…

  What do they do with it when they remove it?

  There’s a cylinder or something. It seems like it’s being placed .n this cylinder, like a silver cylinder, I don’t know, tube—silver, probably three inches wide by [gestures with her hand].

  Is the cylinder portable? In other words, are they holding it, or… ?

  They’re holding it.

  What do they do with the cylinder then?

  Well, you know how, they got other… God! It’s like they’ve got other babies there. They’re in like drawers in the walls; it’s like little drawers that pull out, and there’s babies, like little, little somethings in these drawers that pull out like in a lab or something.

  (Tracy Knapp, 20, 1977)

  Tracy described drawers on the wall containing many fetuses. This is where they put the fetus they took from her. She thought that the drawers were acting as incubators for the fetuses.

  Sperm Collection

  For men, the expression of sperm is a central aspect of the abduction experience. All males after puberty experience the sperm-collection process. The aliens initiate sperm-sampling procedures either directly after or during Mindscan. They place a tubelike apparatus or a funnel with a tube attached on the end of the penis, and they attach the other end to a machine. They then somehow extract the sperm. Sometimes they place a metallic, cuplike machine over the penis to extract the sperm (this is what happened to Barney Hill, am
ong others). The apparatus acts as a pumping machine. An erection sometimes takes place but is not needed. There is ejaculation but not necessarily orgasm.

  Often the subject is so distracted with an ongoing Mindscan that he is only vaguely aware of the sperm-collection procedure. At other times it can be quite painful, and it can be extremely embarrassing, particularly for adolescents. Very often a “female” alien will perform a bonding procedure during the extraction of sperm or immediately before it. With a combination of bonding and envisioning (see next chapter), the alien will make the abductee think that he is engaging in sexual relations with a human woman. This facilitates the sperm-collection procedures. At other times a male Taller Being will perform the sperm extraction.

  Some men have said that while the sperm is being extracted, the aliens press or “knead” the right side of their lower abdomen. Ken Rogers had his side massaged during a sperm extraction procedure and was at a loss to understand why.

  Does he communicate anything to you while this is going on?

  Not that I recall. I don’t know what he says at all. I don’t think he says anything. I just feel kind of like a baby, a little. Very safe, calm. I get the feeling these guys are guys who were busy doing something down there.

  What do you mean?

  I think they’re hooking up a machine. They hook up a machine on a tube, with a suction cup end. So now they put it on my penis. I don’t remember this or feel it, but I can see it happening now. That’s where sexual feeling comes.

  This is happening while he’s staring at you?

  Yeah, then he’ll break away, and I think he touches me somehow. That’s when I ejaculate. At least that’s the way I see it. And I think while one little guy hooks up the machine the other one pumps my stomach for some reason. That seems to be the procedure. When he looks into my eyes, I get this bonding feeling. When the machine’s all hooked up and ready, he strokes me or something. It feels pleasurable. And I ejaculate into the machine. That’s the way I see it all the time.

  So you think this is the same as before, then?

  Yeah, it seems to be the same thing. Then they take it away. They wheel this thing away. And then he either bends down, or waits a little, and looks back into my eyes. I think he looks back into my eyes for a short time. Then I get this feeling of “Till we meet again” or something. A real close, ongoing relationship that will continue. Then he gets up and leaves, and I lie there for a while.

  (Ken Rogers, 28, 1988)

  Will Parker experienced the same method of sperm extraction, but his was even more mechanical than Ken’s. One time he felt that there was a “self-contained” unit attached to his penis; at other times he described a hoselike appendage attached to his penis and then to a machine.

  Are there just these two who are doing this?

  There are others. They’ve got this comb-shaped gimmick over my crotch, and it’s a buzzing, vibration type of sensation. It’s a very functional kind of thing.

  What do you think is happening?

  Well, they’re taking a sperm sample, obviously, because it’s not piss they’re pulling out of there.

  Do you feel something flowing out?

  Definitely; there’s an erection and there’s no sense of release or anything orgasmic; it’s just like a literal drawing out.

  … Can you get a sense of what it [the apparatus] looks like?

  The only glimpse I could get of it, and I remember seeing something like it before, a long time before, but it’s like a, it looks like polished stainless steel, aluminum, chromium I guess you’d call it. It fits over the penis and it’s got a rounded lower section that fits up over the testicles. And it’s like you’re enclosed in this thing. It looks like a piece of machinery that no good mistress of domination would be without, something rather kinky, in a different environment of course. But it looks, it’s completely metallic.

  Some people report that there’s like a tubelike thing that goes to a machine on the side of them.

  I don’t see any tube or anything. This looks like it’s self-contained.

  I see.

  Of course, I can’t see if there’s anything coming out of the lower section of it, or maybe where I can’t see, but from where I can see it doesn’t look like there’s anything attached to it, it’s attached to me and that’s it.

  (Will Parker, 33, 1988)

  James Austino was a student at Temple University when he realized that certain puzzling and frightening events in his life might be due to the abduction phenomenon. We had several sessions together; in the course of one, he recalled having sperm extracted by a device similar to Will Parker’s. The Beings began the procedure by pulling an apparatus that resembled a “dentist’s light” close to him from its attachment underneath the table.

  Oh, this is the “dentist’s light”?

  Yeah, he grabs it and moves it down toward my waist.

  How does he get… if it’s down that low…?

  He can just reach up and touch it and move it. He pulls it down pretty close to my waist, like maybe two feet above my waist. This part gets embarrassing.

  Is this the genital business?

  Yeah. The tall guy fumbles around down there, and I’m looking up, and I keep getting the feeling “It’s okay.”

  So they’re reassuring you?

  Yeah. Don’t worry about it, it’s not going to hurt. I still get the feeling that he’s instructing, like the other guy… he’s kind of showing him, because he presses right here [above pubic hair line]… and he’s still looking at the other guy, and he looks down and moves it around a little bit. He goes underneath and lifts it up a little bit and starts touching down there and stuff like that. I’m a little uncomfortable.

  Absolutely…. So, he’s sort of showing this other guy your genitals, and sort of manipulating the whole thing?

  Yes. I feel like a lab animal, just sort of lying there and taking it, like a cat at the vet…. One of the arms has tubes running from it, and they’re bringing it down to my genital area. I say out loud, “What’s that for?”

  You mean, through your mouth?

  Yeah, and the big guy quickly glances over at me, and he moves toward my face. He puts his left hand on my forehead, and he comes down pretty close to my face.

  How close is he?

  About two inches away from my face right now. It’s almost like I’m locked with him.

  While you’re locked with him, what’s going through your mind? Is he generating any feelings?

  No, but he’s giving me a picture of Monique [his friend who was switched off during the abduction] with no clothes on. That’s just the image I get.