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Do you sort of feel yourself going limp just before you realize you are like a couple of rag dolls?

  Yeah, I just felt clammy, like I was losing energy. It was like I felt like I had been at it for a couple of hours or so, which isn’t usual….

  Now, you say that you sort of go limp like rag dolls, so that means that you must be lying on her.

  Yes, I’m lying on her. They pull me off, and I’m on my side, but my eyes aren’t moving. I can only see what’s in the field of vision, and I’m on my side. I can see, it’s like everything’s sideways because I can’t turn my head up, and they’re there, and they’ve got her, and there’s a flash, it’s dark.

  Is she standing?

  No, she’s gone!

  Oh, you say they’ve got her. Do they stand her up? Do they get her out of bed that way? Does she walk?

  It was like they rolled her off. As they were rolling her off the edge of the bed, she just faded out with them, just like a flash. And yet I’m thinking she’ll be back…. It’s like I’m shutting down. I’m just there, that’s all. It’s like my eyes, I’m trying, I can’t move my eyes.

  Are you still on your side?

  No. Well, my head’s turned to the left enough so my left eye still has slight field of vision to the edge of the bed, but there’s nothing there to see, and the other eye is just staring into the blanket. I can’t move my eye. I can’t move from left to right.

  But your eyes are open?

  Yeah, they’re open, but it’s like nothing’s happening.

  While you’re lying there, and she’s gone, do you get a sense that anybody touches you?

  I don’t think so. I’m just lying there, I might as well be asleep, except I don’t know why I’m not. I’d like to move, but I can’t move, so I just don’t…. I’ve got a headache, I know that, and my left arm’s cramping.

  Can you move your left arm?

  No, I can’t move it, but it’s cramping. And the right, my right leg, the tendons from the knee down to the ankle, they’re trying to cramp up, but I can’t do anything about it.

  You can’t flex your foot or anything?

  No, all I can feel is a tingle, like the muscles are trying to pull but they won’t pull. I can’t do anything about it, but I have a hell of a headache.

  Now, you’re looking over somewhere?

  Yeah.

  When you look there before, Nancy was in your field of vision as they rolled her off the bed.

  Yeah.

  Can you see her coming back now, or at least coming into view?

  It’s like, I can’t see them, but I can see her. It’s like she’s—it’s eerie—it’s like she was down on the side of the bed the whole time, and it’s like if you could imagine the bed like a conveyor belt, if I’m not moving, and it is, it’s almost as if she was down on the side of the bed and she just nonchalantly rolled back up onto the bed, not under her power, but just under a conveyance. She was suddenly there, but I didn’t see anyone around her…. She comes into view.

  From your… ?

  From below my field of vision, below the bed, up onto the bed. Then I can sense myself, I’m getting poked and pushed around, I’m being pulled back and we’re being moved, manipulated around. And yet I can move again, and it’s just like we never missed a beat….

  So suddenly your wife is back in bed.

  Yes.

  Is she alert, or is she out of it?

  No, she’s awake.

  This is before you get back on top.

  No, oh, before that, she’s limp, completely, totally limp.

  Are her eyes open or closed?

  Closed.

  Do you see yourself getting back into the position that you were in before?

  I’m being put into position. That’s odd. That’s real odd.

  I’m going to ask you another horribly embarrassing question.

  That’s all right.

  How did you get an erection? Is it just there?

  I still had one.

  You mean the whole time that you were…

  Yeah, that I know.

  So that…

  It’s got to be a record.

  So the blood never essentially drained…

  No, everything is as it was…

  So then you finish?

  Yeah. She says, “Ouch!” She said she felt an electric shock. I said, “Where?” She said, “Right there,” and pointed to her hip. And I remember looking at the clock and I’m thinking it’s around, I know it’s midnight, I’m thinking 12:05.

  (“Tom,” 1988)

  I asked Tom not to discuss the incident with his wife, who had been thinking of coming to see me to investigate some unusual events that had happened to her. When she came I asked if we could hypnotically investigate the incident of her feeling an electric shock going through her hips. She was surprised when I mentioned it because she had not thought about it since it happened, and it did not seem to be related to abductions. After the hypnosis session began, she started to describe the lovemaking episode and then she saw a blue light in her room pointed at her.

  It’s aiming right at me.

  From in front of you, or on top of you, or… ?

  I think it’s behind me.

  What is behind your bed, there?

  At the time, a window and the heater.

  There was a window there, you say?

  Yeah.

  So the blue light is sort of aiming at you from behind.

  Uh-huh.

  As you notice this blue light, what is Tom doing?

  Nothing.

  Has he stopped?

  No, it’s like he’s not there. It’s like he’s in a trance, he’s just lying there.

  He’s lying there on your side?

  He’s sort of next to me. He’s not moving.

  But he was on top of you just before?

  Yes, he was.

  Now, as you see Tom lying there, there’s this blue light, do you get the sense that you and Tom are alone in the room?

  Not anymore.

  What’s going on in there? What do you see?

  When I saw the light it’s like the window disappeared. It’s like something came through it.

  You mean, sort of from over your head?

  Yeah, because I was lying down [their heads were at the foot of the bed].

  When you say something came through, what kind of a sense do you get of that? What do you think it might have been?

  … I kept telling them to leave me alone, to stop using me because I told Tom I want another baby and I can’t get pregnant if they keep bugging me, if they’re messing my cycle up.

  Are you saying this in your bedroom right then and there?

  I feel like I’m still in the bedroom. I don’t feel like I’ve left.

  When you say “them,” are you talking about more than….

  I think there were two of them there.

  Are they big, medium, small?

  They were shorter than I am.

  Where are they in relation to you?

  They’re standing up against the bed.

  Do they come up to you? Of course, if they’re next to the bed they’re fairly close, I would assume.

  Mm-hmm….

  Well, let’s sort this out then. You’re lying in bed, you see a blue light, you see these little guys in the room. Tom is off to the side now.

  Uh-huh.

  He’s sort of in a trance. Are his eyes open, or are they closed?

  I can’t see, he’s not facing me. They’ve got him moved from the way he was.

  And these guys sort of come up to the side of the bed?

  Right, they were standing up next to me.

  Do you sit up, for instance?

  I try, but they kept telling me it was all right, just to lie down. And I couldn’t move, I felt like I was just frozen in that position….

  Nancy went on to describe an abduction event filled with physical and mental procedures that happened while her husband “waited” for her. The Beings then
returned her to her original position in the bed.

  What happens next? Do you just continue to lie there, or…

  I don’t think they were there that long, I don’t remember how long it was, but they left and, I think, the next thing I remember is, Tom was on top of me again, and that’s when I felt the shock.

  (“Nancy,” 1988)

  Automobile

  An abduction from a car usually begins with a UFO sighting. The abductee may be driving alone when suddenly she sees a strange object flying through the air or even hovering off the side of the road. The victim pulls over and gets out, ostensibly to take a better look at it. Then for no apparent reason she walks toward the object now on the ground. As she gets closer she notices that the Small Beings are apparently waiting for her near it. She is not necessarily frightened, but she is uneasy, yet she cannot stop walking toward them. She comes up to them and they escort her into the object.

  If she is driving and spots an object that appears to land out of view, she might stop the car and walk to an area off the road, with trees or heavy foliage, where she thinks the object has landed. She comes to a clearing where a Small Being joins her; they walk for a short distance toward a UFO resting on the ground and enter it.

  If the person is in the car with other people, the aliens switch off the nontargeted individuals. For example: Several people are riding at night and the abductee is one of the passengers. Suddenly they spot a strange light in the sky that gives off an eerie glow and begins to move closer to them. Inexplicably, the driver pulls the car over to the side of the road and stops. The UFO shines a light directly on them. The abductee is excited and frightened; she yells at the driver to keep going, but it is too late. The driver and the other two people have “vacant” looks on their faces, and their heads are leaning against the window or the seat. The victim realizes in horror that her friends are “unconscious.” Their perceptions and information processing have been disrupted, and they no longer are in control of their senses, memories, or wills.

  Then the light beam that was shining on the car takes on a different character. It has a physically compelling or pulling effect on the abductee. Her consciousness is altered, and it is difficult for her to understand what is happening. Before she realizes it, she floats up off her seat and heads directly through the windshield and up. She ascends as if she were on an invisible elevator until she reaches the UFO.

  Will Parker, a computer programmer, was driving with his first wife, Ginny, through Virginia late one night in 1974. He inexplicably pulled into a closed gas station in a small town, turned off the motor and the lights, and waited in the darkness. A hypnosis session with me fourteen years later revealed why he had performed this seemingly inexplicable act.

  So we’re sitting there. I keep thinking. I don’t know why we keep waiting. Nothing’s come by. There’s nothing out there.

  Are you talking with each other while you’re waiting?

  Yes, we’re just talking. We’re both kind of jumpy….

  You sit there talking.

  Yes. She’s telling me to be quiet, she thought she heard something.

  Okay.

  I don’t see anything, I’m looking around. I don’t know. I didn’t hear anything, but she said she did.

  Does she hear a noise that’s coming from the front, the back, the side?

  She didn’t say, she just said she thought she heard something. She didn’t say what kind of noise, she said she was sure she saw a light.

  While you’re sitting there, or before?

  Before. She said that there’s someone out there. Oh, shit.

  What is it?

  Yeah, I see them. Ginny, she’s shocked. She’s praying.

  What do you see?

  Little guy, he’s outside the car, and he’s not human. He’s, he ought to be cold because he hasn’t got a coat on. I’ve seen this before, but I didn’t remember it until now. Now Ginny is quiet. I’m turning to her, but she’s just, she’s asleep is what she is.

  Are her eyes closed?

  No, they’re not, but she looks like she’s drifting off. They got me out of the car.

  Do you open the car door, or do they…?

  I don’t remember, I don’t think I opened it. I’m out of the car now, and she’s sitting in the car. I keep thinking I want to lock it up, but I can’t get to the car. I don’t want anyone to get in to her, because she’s by herself.

  Does she get out of the car also?

  No, she’s asleep.

  They don’t take her out of the car?

  No. I keep thinking I don’t want them to take me away from the car, but I’m afraid she’s going to be scared when she wakes up and I’m not there for her. We’re going around the building. It’s dark. There are a bunch of them.

  How many do you think there are?

  Four, maybe five. It’s weird. I’m saying, “Where are the rest?” But they don’t say anything to me.

  When you talk to them, are you verbalizing?

  I’m not sure. I think so, but it’s like they’re not talking back to me, but… they told me that they’ll bring me back. They’re not going to hurt me. I’m not scared. I’m surprised, but I’m not scared. I’m scared for Ginny because I don’t know how she’s going to, she’s not going to remember… They told me she’s not going to remember.

  The Beings took Will around to the back of the service station where they all stood around in a tight group.

  We’re just in the back of the building. It’s dark.

  You’re behind the building?

  We’re behind the building. We’re just standing there, like in a group….

  Do they say what they’re waiting for, or what’s happening?

  I know what they’re waiting for, they’re waiting to be picked up, but they… it’s here. It’s not very big. It’s bigger than the building, but it’s not huge. We’re going underneath it. We’re just, it’s like it’s opening up, but I don’t see any door. It’s just like it’s open. We’re going up inside.

  How do you go up inside?

  I’m not sure. It’s like we’re on an elevator, but it’s open. I’m not sure. We were on the ground a moment ago, now we’re inside. It’s like we were lifted up, but nothing grabbed hold of me. I can still see the ground and earth underneath, but it’s closing off. I can’t see it that well. It’s not all that bright inside either, it’s kind of dark.

  (Will Parker, 19, 1974)

  Sometimes the abductee will inexplicably get into her car and drive to a specific location where the abduction will take place. The abductee does not think about why she is doing this, or she invents a reason so that her behavior conforms to logic and reality. For example, the abductee tells herself that she “wanted to take a ride” or that she was “going to visit friends.” When asked where she went, she is at a loss to remember or makes up another excuse that she later realizes is not true.